A Time Machine Called Life Powered by Routine
Which would be fine if I could say my life was so much bigger on the inside, like the Doctor's Tardis, but it's not, it's actually smaller and filled with a lot of mundane crap that needs to be done. It's something called a 'routine'. Mine involves dish washing, exercising, walking our two dogs, and doing work for clients. Things that need to be done but I'd quite happily rather be doing something else.
Your routine is what propels you forward through time. The more you have in your routine the faster you travel through time. Paradoxically if parts of your routine are really mundane or just downright boring they can feel like time is dragging but it's just an illusion. You'll still wonder where all your time went at the end of the week.
The problem with a routine is, if you get too much packed into it, it becomes very hard to find time for those things that can make your life bigger, more interesting and just generally more fulfilling. That's where I find myself now. I keep trying to plan to do other things but by the time I get through my routine there's usually no time left.
I suspect my feeling of travelling quicker through life is not dis-similar to anyone who has, what people some time refer to as, a 'real' job - as if what I do for a living isn't real simply because I work from home and have to manage my own routine - but that's another bitch session.
Anyone with a job knows that it's not so easy to find time to do those extra things after work and on the weekends that you want to do but are not generally part of your routine. Often it's because you just want that time to wind down and relax because the job part of your routine wears you out.
If your job is just a job then it can really feel like your life is being propelled forward through time by your routine. Before you know it, you're not as young as you used to be and you are wondering if you couldn't have spent that time doing something more worthwhile.
I really don't mind the speed at which I appear to be travelling forward through time but I do have that sense that I should really be doing something more worthwhile with my time. Something that is more meaningful to me and feels a lot less like a routine.
Time to pull this Time Machine over to the side and give my routine an overhaul I think.